https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/ The archived found diary. https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=154730488648 https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=154730488648 Tue, 20 Dec 2016 19:24:18 +0000 http://store.steampowered.com/app/570350 There’s even a special launch discount , so if you need a little break from the Christmas cheer this evening, grab a hot chocolate, turn off the lights and step into this unsettling interpretation of pre-war Berlin… https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=154547073013 https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=154547073013 Fri, 16 Dec 2016 13:28:55 +0000 This twisted tale will be debuting on Steam any day now. Be sure to look out for it… if you have a sturdy disposition. http://store.steampowered.com/app/570350 https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=154547434158 https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=154547434158 Wed, 14 Dec 2016 13:44:17 +0000 Of course I understand the concept of release, and why it’s important. The biggest benefit is that it reverts whatever had previously been pent up back to its base-state… It prevents certain aspects of existence becoming overbearing. Now the trouble is, why can’t I experience it fully? In fact, I have become somewhat obsessed with the prospect recently and the calm it must bring. Even when performing actions that typically result in release, I can’t quite get there… Instead, they only serve to make the voice niggling at the back of my mind louder. https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=154326959323 https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=154326959323 Sun, 11 Dec 2016 11:19:07 +0000 ??? https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=154077992128 https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=154077992128 Mon, 05 Dec 2016 15:14:54 +0000 We know what we are but not what we may be. https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=154077856008 https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=154077856008 Thu, 01 Dec 2016 19:09:52 +0000 Today I was told that I need to work on my communication skills; this caught me off guard. I have been referred to as eloquent on many occasions, and I believe that conversationally, I am concise with my language… In fact, I make a point to carefully consider my words whenever I am able, as I don’t like the idea of being misconstrued. I am overly analytical and perhaps a little blunt, but I am also considerate and honest. https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=153867357058 https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=153867357058 Mon, 28 Nov 2016 17:09:40 +0000 I cannot recall a time when I wasn’t playing with or thinking about trains when growing up. My parents always made a point of reminding our extended family that I cried the first time that I saw one in real life; conveniently forgetting to mention that I was 3 years old at the time. As a adult my obsession has evolved into a healthy fondness. When travelling by train, the vibrations and noises always make me tired; I usually end up soundly asleep, even during short journeys. https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=153513865318 https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=153513865318 Tue, 22 Nov 2016 12:16:21 +0000 I may have been very young, but the intensity of our relationship effects me to this day. When she slips into my mind, I’m back there with her; not a day has passed. https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=153513494208 https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=153513494208 Sun, 20 Nov 2016 11:56:39 +0000 Sketch #2 (severely scratched) https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=153513680818 https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=153513680818 Fri, 18 Nov 2016 12:06:22 +0000 I have never met anyone like her before… all the pieces are there, but they don’t quite seem to fully connect. I’m sure people have said similar things about me. https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=153172694123 https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=153172694123 Mon, 14 Nov 2016 14:39:13 +0000 I understand that I am the result of my experiences, and that those experiences are kept as memories. What I struggle to comprehend is how the brain chooses which ones to hold close, and which ones to let escape into the ether. https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=152952970443 https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=152952970443 Wed, 09 Nov 2016 15:48:40 +0000 Deep into that darkness peering, long I stood there, wondering, fearing, doubting, dreaming dreams no mortal ever dared to dream before. https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=152953264903 https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=152953264903 Mon, 07 Nov 2016 15:57:01 +0000 I received a letter from Alfred today asking whether I like my new home. The letter was sent out of obligation, a simple courtesy to keep up appearances. I know the ritual well but am tired of it. Perhaps I shouldn’t comply with the facade and instead respond honestly? https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=152919218818 https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=152919218818 Fri, 04 Nov 2016 00:25:25 +0000 Sketch #1 https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=151049812453 https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=151049812453 Thu, 03 Nov 2016 20:54:29 +0000 It’s now November and so I know that the nights must be bitterly cold in England, but I’m certain it’s worse here… or maybe it’s just that it’s more relentless? Either way, seemingly wherever I am, the cold penetrates my flesh and chills my bones. I can no longer feel settled after dark. https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=152903846188 https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=152903846188 Mon, 24 Oct 2016 16:12:31 +0000 I know it sounds silly, but I really did love Rosie. Somehow she felt more real to me than… well anything. She was always there for me, would always listen without expecting anything in return. I’m truly grateful to have had her. https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=152953634893 https://entschuldigung.neonight.games/?post=152953634893 Thu, 13 Oct 2016 15:07:24 +0000 I’m beginning to feel like I’m learning a new way to say ‘sorry’ every day in German. I have to admit though, the word ‘entschuldigung’ does have a certain ring to it. I have been using ‘es tut uns leid’ up until now, but I feel entschuldigung suits me better. Maybe because it’s just the lone word, but it sounds more succinct to me, more sincere perhaps.